I have never done anything on Tumblr but reblog everything, and this is no exception. I sort of edited julie911‘s original post and just posted the words that I can really relate to, because I feel that it would be an insult to her and all the other people who have that kind of condition. I can only just imagine what they’re going through. But even if I’m not experiencing the same physical pain right now, I’m feeling a bit of emotional pain, and these words defined exactly what I’m feeling. I never realized how attached I’ve been to a certain event until I read this post (and all the other posts for the past few weeks). There’s a hodgepodge of thoughts now, a lot of ideas, musings that remain ‘formless’ because I have avoided the issue, and just ‘clung on’ to it. Really, I should let it go. And I need to deal with it. Acceptance requires time: time to think things through and feel through whatever I’m going through right now. It’s just one big mess that I need to sort out and let go of, properly. Anyway, compared to what Julie is going through right now, mine is just some childish issue that should have been resolved earlier, if I had half the strength and courage that she had. I sincerely feel for her, at this moment in time, and I do hope that she would feel better soon.
[via julie911 @Tumblr]
I’ve stubbornly clung on… ignoring whatever I could ignore, carrying on like nothing was happening with me, as if that could extend the goodness…
But nothing extends it…
It all feels like a hard slap in your face… It leaves you shaken up and wondering… And I have avoided writing about it … because putting these things out in words, seeing these things in front of me, well … it only makes me sick to my stomach and sad and angry. And I don’t want to feel like that.
But it is what it is, and I realize that if I were to take the good week as a blessing, as a wonderful breather, instead of being disappointed that it’s over, maybe I wouldn’t be so upset.
So that’s my goal for this week: being grateful and accepting of things now, however hard that may be, because there really isn’t any other way to deal with this. I just wish it were easier.
PS: After I posted this, I got a really nice note on my Tumblr dashboard: Julie liked my post. Awww, one of my Tumblr idols liked my post! 
